#41

Hey peeps,

Keep holding the rope

Full of agony and nothing make sense. That’s what i feel now after had gone through a painful moment just now, a very aching moment. I couldn’t resist when people never try listen to me, even if it is just for a second. I never got the chance to speak, to fix those misunderstanding that they have on me. All they did was screaming and yelling at me as if i had no feeling, at all. But they are wrong.

This is because they never try to grasp my feeling, in any way. Whenever i can’t hide the tears anymore, they will look at me like they are watching a tv show. And it looks like they are enjoying the show. To be honest, I despise it, cause it makes me feel insecure. Have you ever gone through a situation when you are crying, and people are all looking at you, and then they make a really pathetic face.

 A face that would deeper your heartache. And now i’m facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile. I wish that those people could trade place with me so that they know how it feels to be on the edge of breaking down.

I know life was never meant to be easy, but i never thought it would be this hard.

Feb 10th 2010