#40

Hey peeps, 

Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him

Heartbreaks are like a rite of passage, something everyone must go through in order to grow emotionally. I've had heartbreaks before but they were nothing compared to the one I experienced, (and still am), when I lost my friend and not ever getting an exact reason as to why. To this day I still don't have an exact reason which is why I feel like I have a wound that will never heal. Most would likely think it silly of me to be heartbroken over a friendship that never really was but to me it was the first real friendship I ever had. I made the mistake of falling in love with him and confessing it. To this day I wonder why I did love him.

I moved on enough to know that I won't make that mistake again even though I'm currently in a relationship with someone who's proven himself honest enough that I know he loves me, and I wouldn't be wasting my love on him. So I'm actually a little thankful for having experienced that heartbreak because if I hadn't I would probably still be friends with the coward that never was friends with me.

So, heartbreaks teach us to know the difference between someone who deserves your heart versus someone who doesn't.

Feb 8th 2011