#23

Hey peeps,

Finally, the boredom takes over

I don't know what I'm going to write here, and I only hope that I remember to put in those breaks when I want a paragraph to end. I'm probably the only person who'll ever read this, so I suppose I can write whatever I want. (I must say that it's amazing how much can get put on a line of an html document. But then again, running in high res does that sort of thing to you.)

Now, I don't want someone to get the impression that I'm a slacker. I like to think of myself as very intelligent. I just... erm... *cough* procrastinate *cough*. I'll study for those tests I should be studying for now... at some point.

I'm running an experiment in being single. Lol. It's been interesting so far. Which isn't to say that I recommend it to anyone. I just needed to do it for a while. And it's not as if there's a whole bunch of guys around here beating down my door, so it's not been to difficult to enforce. *sigh* Even though I've always been the one to leave my relationships, I've always cried as if I were the one getting dumped. Go figure, I suppose.

The question arises as to why it is that I'm running my experiment. The answer: because I need to grow up. Which I'm not going to do if I'm using another person as a shield from the world. Yes, I'm lonely, but I consider this a necessary thing to do. I've been very childish in my interactions with others and with the world at large, a situation which needs to be fixed so that I don't hurt more people (including myself).

I've just noticed how awful, grammatically speaking, all that I've written has been. I apologize about that... Normally I'm really anal about the editing side of things, but I'm feeling lazy tonight. That probably means I should go to bed, but it's early yet. It's not even half past one in the morning. And I don't need to get up until 9 or so....

I spend far too much time on the computer. It's a good thing, then, that I enjoy it so very much. *grin* I do, however, occasionally get off my ass and do something else. That something else is called... Ultimate Frisbee! Sport of champions, even if it does have more running involved than I'd like. I've never been the most athletic person, but I'm getting there after 4 and a half years of playing. Jogging three times a week is helping too. And don't tell anyone this... but after 3 months of jogging, I'm finally starting to... like it.

I've finally realized that this stream of consciousness thing is really random. Perhaps it's for the best that only I will ever read it. And, since I'm the only one who cares, I'll stop now. Because, well, I'm sleepy.

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Jan 9th 2011