#34

Hey peeps,

I'm not missing you

Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who’s actually listening. Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who’s still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who’s there when it all falls down. Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back

Dear person,

     I don't think I'm still into you, that i miss you, that I want you back or anything. All of that isn't it at all. I look at it like a lesson in life. Something i can grow from.

Anyway, I know you were my 'first boyfriend'. But thank God I didn't give you everything. See, you may have introduced me to alot of new stuff, but you didn't take everything from me. I thought you did kinda in a way. But looking back on it we hardly knew each other. Sure we talked everyday on the fone and stuff, did some things, said stuff but really did we really know soo much about each other as we thought we did. I am the luckiest girl ever. Because sure I was heartbroken when you left, but that taught me things about life. And because of that, I have the best boyfriend anyone can ask for. He may not be perfect, no one is, but he means so much more to me. So your attempts to come back into my life last year most retarded thing ever. Anyway, I'm not mad at you. I don't miss you. I'm just whatever about you. And I hate writing things like this that ask me about whatever it was we had, but oh well. Just a memory.

Well, thanks, for the life lesson I guess. 

Jan 30th 2011