#19

Hey peeps, 

I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you.

Truth to be told, I miss Hakimie so much. I'll be celebrating New Year Eve all alone, while Hakimie is celebrating at the Curve. Why suddenly I feel I'm not good enough for him. What I meant is, he's hot. I'm not. And I'm not the type of girl that going to the club, dance until 6 am. So please accept me for who I am. #Crying. I don't want to put yourself in embarrassment to all your friend. So, wouldn't be better if I leave you? But you told me so many times not to leave you. You said you love me but why I can't see that? I love you Hakimie. I'll never lie about what I felt. I try so hard to avoid from fight. That's why I took all the blame. 

For me, Dec 26th 2010 is a meaningful to me. Yes, it's the day you ask me to be your girlfriend. Every single day I always take a look of your picture. Never miss one day. But yesterday, I appreciated what you did. You called me when I told you I was crying. You ask me to forget about my problem and you said you love me. That day was like I seeing the different you. When you going out and chilling with all your friends, you become.. i don't know. I barely can't describe it. I'm sorry. You know, I was dreaming you took me to the beach. Aww how sweet of you. Duhh, it's only just a dream

Notes: Ahmad Hakimie, I love you. And you don't know how much I miss you. I love you, I will always be. You're the one in my soul. You're the one that I need in my arms. Believe me these words I say are words that come straight from my heart. How do I make you believe? Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

Dec 31st 2010